Word Up 5/3/10

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journaling:
I pretty much always knew I wanted to be a mother. I have always had a love for children, matched only by my aunt’s. As a teenager, I did babysitting, Bible school, taughter Sunday school and helped in the nursery at church whenever I could. After high school, it was not long before I was working in a daycare doing what I loved - working with children. Since then I have worked with every age between birth and thirteen years of age. And while most of the other women I have worked with always talked about how always being around all those kids was “the best birth control” out there, it had the reverse effect on me. It made me want to be a mother even more. So it was only natural that I got pregnant with a couple months after getting married. I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant - I knew it was exactly what I wanted. I loved being pregnant and, even if it was a long labor, really didn’t mind giving birth. Once Tori was born I was on cloud nine. Though, as funny as it might seem, I decided I didn’t want more than one child. I started thinking about having a career, and I wanted to make sure Tori always had the best. I never had anything permanent done to keep from having more children, I just made the decision that she was going to be my only one. But then life changed and I found myself a single mom, meeting someone new and talking about getting married again. We talked about children and I realized that I had changed my opinion on the matter. I did want to be a mother again. And not just one more child, but two or maybe even three more children. And I also realized I no longer wanted to have a big high powered career, but rather focus on being a mom - full time, staying at home. We both agreed that this was what we wanted with our life together and when we found out I was pregnant with Mason, we could not have been more thrilled. Finding out Mason was a boy was just the icing on the cake for us. A boy was what we both hoped for and life seemed like it couldn’t get any better. We’ve gone through some trials in life since Mason was born, but that’s what life is all about. We’ve made it through them to this point and we always remember that God will never give us more than we can handle. Being a mother has been the biggest thing in my life to mature me and make me grow as a person. I’m proud to be a mom and so glad that I’m blessed to be able to stay at home with my children. So now, whenever I connect with a friend from my past, and they ask what I’m doing now, I smile and proudly tell them “Well, I used to go by Ms. Melanie in the daycares, but now all I answer to is...Momma