Journaling:
the excitement of having the first contractions Christmas shopping at Office Max
the excitement of going to hospital at 1:00 in the morning
the nervousness of the nurses studying the monitors
the disbelief that I would have to have an emergency c-section due to your heart
the sound of Mike's voice telling my mother to get to the hospital NOW
the joy of hearing your cry at 6:27 December 7th, 2006
the joy of seeing you for the first time
the excitement of being able to start breastfeeding you
the wonderful way Mike took care of me at the both hospitals & the months that followed
the extreme disbelief of Texas Children's taking you away to NICU in Houston
the complete anguish I felt that I would not be able to feed you
the worry that since they took you away after I had only held you for two hours that we not be able to bond
the comfort of knowing that your Dad was at Texas Childrens with you
the feeling of complete gratitude as my family and friends rallied around me - staying with me at the hospital, cleaning my house, bringing us food, spending the night with me, taking me to Texas Children's
the luck I felt that I had a really nice breast pump (from Aunt Christy) so that you would still get breast milk
the overwhelming feeling of love I had every time I got to hold you at Texas Children's
the scared feeling every time your machines beeped
the elation we felt when they released you
the joy I felt seeing you sleep in your crib for the first time

Credits:
Scrap Girls: Precious Boy & Vintage Nursery
Ellie Lash - Star Gazing Mini
Ellie Lash - Say it with words (from her grab bag)
Ellie Lash - Bubbles (from her grab bag)
MichelleHerron - OhBoy
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