I used a FREE beautiful background page from Just Jaimee called Rainbow Dreams Paper
Clouds and lighting effects from Azur Sea you Later kit
Wavy Templates 2.0 by Libby Weifenbach, Font PeaBailey


Beware if you read the journaling - contains the words of my grieving heart which were harsh tonight...



Why did I put that movie in? I should know better.
I am really HATING heaven right now. Where is our happily ever after? Why does every show seem to have a happy ending when there is no happy ending in our life and there never will be. Those people who think there is are WRONG. We will never see or be with our girls again. I know because I buried them. I put them in a casket and closed the cover and designed grave markers. I held them in my arms and
felt it as their bodies got cold and saw their glazed eyes. I dressed them in their funeral clothes and held their stiff bodies, saw their decayed skin. I heard autopsy reports and received death certificates. Please do NOT say to me, “Someday.” I HATE “Someday”. And I am hating heaven.
I hate heaven because I am NOT THERE. I just want to be there, to be with them.
We should be with our girls and I hate heaven for that.